"One More Day With You"

"One More Day With You"


Baby I think you know
that I meant it
all the words I said
I don't regret it
It's so hard to believe
that it's been so long
so tell me baby
what did I do wrong

I can't understand
things changed so quickly
now I wonder
do you even miss me
You don't write back
You don't pick up the phone
so tell me baby
what did I do wrong

Chorus-
And I'm crying here tonight
I'm dying here tonight
all alone in my room
thinking it through
I'd give anything for one more day with you
I'm lying here tonight
all alone, it just ain't right
just thinking of you
and thinking it through
I'd give up the rest of my life
for one more day with you


Baby I know
you know I just can't stand it
You want me no more
this ain't how I planned it
it don't make sense
no sense at all
so tell me please
what did I do wrong

Baby I know that
you moved on without me
but I don't think you're really all that happy
you're stuck in a rut
just like I'm stuck in this hole
baby tell me please
where did I go wrong

Chorus


And I'm falling on my knees
just begging for you please
give me one more day
give me one more time
say that your heart
will stay forever mine

Chorus

tomorrow

Ok, so I think I'm about to do something incredibly foolish tomorrow, but I don't care, I have to do it or I will lose my mind forever. Maybe some good will come out of it. Maybe I will get my one more day at least. We shall see....

Here's today's soundtrack-

1) Love Story- Taylor Swift
2) Breathe In- Magic Alex
3) Decode- Paramore
4) Messing With My Head- Tinted Windows
5) My Heart- Paramore
6) Franklin- Paramore
7) That's What You Get- Paramore
8) Emergency- Paramore
9) Oh Star- Paramore
10) Born For This- Paramore
11) Conspiracy- Paramore
12) Misery Business- Paramore

Yeah, I'm on a bit of a Paramore kick today

Thursday soundtrack

What I listened to today

1) Messing With My Head- Tinted Windows
2) Kind of a Girl- Tinted Windows
3) Eyes on Fire- Blue Foundation
4) Cosy in the Rocket- Psapp
5) Love Story- Taylor Swift
6) Need You Now- Hanson
7) Decode- Paramore
8) Pills- The Perishers
9) You're Not Sorry- Taylor Swift
10) Dancing in the Wind- Hanson
11) Lost Without Each Other- Hanson
12) Let it Be- The Beatles

My fault

Sometimes I really feel like this is all my fault. Like the reason things went downhill and the reason for the split is my fault. I know he's scared of losing the most important thing to him, but honestly, nowadays, that can't happen unless you really are a truly terrible person and there is proof of that, and he is neither a terrible person nor is there any proof of anything wrong doing on his part. So it has to be my fault. I know I was scared for certain people in my life to know about us and it probably made it look like I was never gonna take that step, but thats not true. I took the step already. They know what happened and they know I want it back more than anything in this world. But I don't think I'm ever gonna be given that chance again. I blew it. I screwed it up. In other words, maybe I deserve to suffer and be miserable because I had the greatest guy in the entire world and now I'm never gonna get the chance to be with him again. I'd give anything for even just one more day. I'd trade the rest of my days for just one more with him.

Tinted Windows

I just want my Tinted Windows album! Why can't it be next Tuesday right now? I mean, I can't have anything else I want in life, at least I could have the music I want. I just listened to clips on amazon.com and it sounds like I'm going to be able to relate to a lot of the songs really well, plus there are a few "fun" songs thrown in there too. Can't wait to be sitting here writing my review of what is sure to be an amazing album. Then again, anything with a Hanson member in it is bound to be gold. Way to go Taylor, you musical genius :)

new song lyrics

"Be Ok"

"Someone said today
you should just be ok
stop your crying
and someone said today
get over the pain
you're not trying

I'm not ok

Someone said today
get over yourself
don't you give in
someone said today
let go of your chains
just start living

but I'm not ok
no I can't be ok

You say I'm masochistic
you say I love the pain
well how can I let go
when pain is the only thing that holds
it holds me when no one will

Someone said today
get off the floor
get a grip or you'll be sorry
and someone said today
you look so far away just like a zombie

Just be ok
I can't be ok
I need pills just to make it through the day
Be ok
I can't just be ok
no, you know it doesn't work that way"


Everyone asks me the same question all the time- "Are you ok?" For the millionth time people, no I am not ok. I'm as far from being ok as you can get. How can people expect me to get over having my heart ripped out of my chest so easily? I've had a rough couple of years. My father's health is always in question and the absolute love of my life left me alone. I am alone. And maybe it's time I start getting used to that. Too bad being alone means I'm stuck with myself.

Dreams

Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But I love you, in a really, really big hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

That's what I dream about saying. I dream of him making that choice and actually choosing me for a change. The sad thing is, the minute you stop being a kid is the minute your dreams stop coming true. Being grown up means living in a scary, unfair world, where adults aren't allowed to have dreams anymore. We're just supposed to bury what's inside of us and hope that the world doesn't kick us in the ass too much.