"The ring on your finger
it cuts me to the core
it says your heart is taken
while mine stays shattered on the floor
Talk, please just keep it coming
talk is all I get, all I can ask for
a sideways glance
on your way home to her
Oh, I've tried to get past the pain
to not imagine your face
but who am I kidding?
Oh, the face in the mirror
this girl staring back at me
she's a stranger with vacant eyes
with shattered hopes and distant smiles
she can't exist without the one
the one who cut her, the one she loves
So I put one foot in front of the other
day after day
sometimes don't know why I bother
Oh someone tell me why
You've got your life
mine got lost along the way
lost when you left me
broke it off and drove away
Oh, I've tried to get past the pain
to not imagine your face
but who am I kidding?
Oh, the face in the mirror
this girl staring back at me
she's a stranger with vacant eyes
with shattered hopes and distant smiles
she can't exist without the one
the one who cut her, the one she loves
Oh, it's a modern day Montague and Capulet
with eyes like yours
how the hell am I supposed to forget
the girl I was, the girl you know
she stays with you, and I am through
I am nothing without you
Oh, the face in the mirror
this girl staring back at me
she's a stranger with vacant eyes
with shattered hopes and distant smiles
she can't exist without the one
the one who cut her, the one she loves
Do you remember us at all?"
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Some of my favorite song lyrics of the moment
"As deep as I need you, you wanna leave it all. What can I do? Say it's true, or everything that matters breaks in two. Say it's true, I'll never ask for anyone but you. And I know that you want us to figure it out, and God knows I do too. What can I do? Say it's true, I'll never ask for anyone but you." ~ "Another Heart Calls" by All-American Rejects
"I don't know why, but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress fearless" ~ "Fearless" by Taylor Swift
"If I told you you were right, would you take my hand tonight?If I told you the reasons why, would you leave your life and ride?" ~"Ride" by Cary Brothers
"Pain make your way to me, to me. And I'll always be just so inviting." ~ "That's What You Get"by Parmore
"I've seen love die way too many times when it deserved to be alive. I've seen you cry way too many times when you deserve to be alive." ~ "Emergency" by Paramore
"I don't know why, but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress fearless" ~ "Fearless" by Taylor Swift
"If I told you you were right, would you take my hand tonight?If I told you the reasons why, would you leave your life and ride?" ~"Ride" by Cary Brothers
"Pain make your way to me, to me. And I'll always be just so inviting." ~ "That's What You Get"by Parmore
"I've seen love die way too many times when it deserved to be alive. I've seen you cry way too many times when you deserve to be alive." ~ "Emergency" by Paramore
Songs I'm listening to today
Just being random, here's my playlist today-
1) Kind of a Girl- Tinted Windows
2) Flightless Bird, American Mouth- Iron and Wine
3) Breathe- Taylor Swift
4) If You Want Me- Marketa Irglova and Glen Hansard
5) Forever and Always- Taylor Swift
6) Love is Worth the Fall- O.A.R.
7) Ride- Cary Brothers
8) That's What You Get- Paramore
9) Lie- David Cook
10) One More Day With You- Eisley
11) Not Sure- Fiction Family
12) Never Think- Robert Pattinson
13) Another Heart Calls- All-American Rejects
14) Decode (Acoustic)- Paramore
15) Sunday Bloody Sunday (U2 Cover)- Paramore
16) All the Way Down- Glen Hansard
17) I Know I Know I Know- Tegan and Sara
18) Full Moon- The Black Ghosts
19) Emergency- Paramore
20) Teardrops on My Guitar- Taylor Swift
1) Kind of a Girl- Tinted Windows
2) Flightless Bird, American Mouth- Iron and Wine
3) Breathe- Taylor Swift
4) If You Want Me- Marketa Irglova and Glen Hansard
5) Forever and Always- Taylor Swift
6) Love is Worth the Fall- O.A.R.
7) Ride- Cary Brothers
8) That's What You Get- Paramore
9) Lie- David Cook
10) One More Day With You- Eisley
11) Not Sure- Fiction Family
12) Never Think- Robert Pattinson
13) Another Heart Calls- All-American Rejects
14) Decode (Acoustic)- Paramore
15) Sunday Bloody Sunday (U2 Cover)- Paramore
16) All the Way Down- Glen Hansard
17) I Know I Know I Know- Tegan and Sara
18) Full Moon- The Black Ghosts
19) Emergency- Paramore
20) Teardrops on My Guitar- Taylor Swift
Another day
So I definitely should be working at the moment, but you can see how much I feel like doing that. It's just the same old stuff, different day. On the positive, my father seems to being doing ok lately, I think we're supposed to get some rain at some point this week, and my Gaelic Storm concert is this Friday. Plus, Paramore in June!!! I really can't wait to see them live. They better play "That's What You Get" because that is my song. Anyway, back to work.... oh joy!
Monday, March 30, 2009
Ok, time for something a little less heavy...
1) Don't feel like working tomorrow!!!
2) I'm currently watching one of the best Seinfeld epiodes ever- The Junior Mint!
3) I watched "Once" last night for the first time in months and I sobbed through the whole thing, even though I know it by heart! Best part of that movie is when Glen asks Marketa in Czech "Do you love him?" and she answers in Czech, "No, I love you" but never tells him what she said. Heartbreaking!
4) I have Paramore stuck in my head as usual
5) If anyone has any music suggestions for me, I'm always on the search for something new. It's only be like a week since I bought new music, so it's time...... :)
2) I'm currently watching one of the best Seinfeld epiodes ever- The Junior Mint!
3) I watched "Once" last night for the first time in months and I sobbed through the whole thing, even though I know it by heart! Best part of that movie is when Glen asks Marketa in Czech "Do you love him?" and she answers in Czech, "No, I love you" but never tells him what she said. Heartbreaking!
4) I have Paramore stuck in my head as usual
5) If anyone has any music suggestions for me, I'm always on the search for something new. It's only be like a week since I bought new music, so it's time...... :)
Song #2 "Muse"
Draft of song #2 entitled "Muse" (excellent band by the way!)
"This isn't the kind of song I wanted to write
it's 4 AM, I still haven't slept all night
still tossing and turning
it's not comforting to know
that you're out there somewhere
feeling broken and alone
The eleven o'clock hour resonates
it lasts the whole night through
the memories, the flashbacks
of the day when I met you
My muse...
The rain falls down upon the ground
against my weary face
I miss your lips, your everything
your fragrance and your taste
The raindrops are teardrops
Weeping angels in the sky
They cry for me, they cry for you
they cry and cry and cry...
Oh my muse, my trance
I will never let you go
The rain from eyes, it's soaking my bed
my face, my pillow, were I rest my throbbing head
Oh my muse, my inspiration
the rain continues to fall
there's nothing to hold on to
no pictures to be found
so the rain will keep falling, down, down, down
Oh my muse, my trance
you say that I'm the lucky one
well I'm all alone
with no one to hold
with nothing to keep me warm
Oh my muse, my twilight
I can't let go of you
please don't give up
don't let go of me
for this isn't the song that I wanted to write
Oh my muse... "
Needs a lot of work, but whatever
"This isn't the kind of song I wanted to write
it's 4 AM, I still haven't slept all night
still tossing and turning
it's not comforting to know
that you're out there somewhere
feeling broken and alone
The eleven o'clock hour resonates
it lasts the whole night through
the memories, the flashbacks
of the day when I met you
My muse...
The rain falls down upon the ground
against my weary face
I miss your lips, your everything
your fragrance and your taste
The raindrops are teardrops
Weeping angels in the sky
They cry for me, they cry for you
they cry and cry and cry...
Oh my muse, my trance
I will never let you go
The rain from eyes, it's soaking my bed
my face, my pillow, were I rest my throbbing head
Oh my muse, my inspiration
the rain continues to fall
there's nothing to hold on to
no pictures to be found
so the rain will keep falling, down, down, down
Oh my muse, my trance
you say that I'm the lucky one
well I'm all alone
with no one to hold
with nothing to keep me warm
Oh my muse, my twilight
I can't let go of you
please don't give up
don't let go of me
for this isn't the song that I wanted to write
Oh my muse... "
Needs a lot of work, but whatever
Talk to me
I want you to know that I'm thrilled to have you speaking to me again. To have you acknowledging my existence. I know that you don't want anything more than that, and I respect that. Just know that I will NEVER be over you because I feel in my heart that you are forever my soulmate. No one will ever change that. I told you a long time ago that you are stuck with me, and being the stubbon self that I am, you truly are stuck with me. You're stuck with me loving you for the rest of time, whether you want it or not. The heart wants what it wants, and my heart is constantly screaming your name. Get used to that and never tell me to let you go, because I won't do it. You need someone to love you, even if you can't love me back. As much as that kills me, I won't let go of my love for you. It's too strong. You are my best friend and the only person in this world to truly understand me. So keep talking, because I'm ALWAYS here to listen. The phone isn't gone, the emails are all saved.. it's all still there. So keep talking... please, for my sake, keep talking....
Song #1 "Sweetie"
Ok, this is just the first draft of this song entitled "Sweetie." Only one person knows the significance of this title. Here goes nothing...
"I'm trying so hard
just to push you and the past aside
just like you pushed me away
with no real explaination why
my love, my soulmate, my one and only scar
oh God, let's face it..I'm not really trying all that hard
Oh, it's just not an option to let you go
the obstacles, the negativity, the lies that people told
they are no match for me, for the love that my heart holds
So forget about the mistakes
we did the best we could
take hold of my hand love, let's be what we should
let's break down these walls
and leave the pieces on the floor
take my hand love
and let me be your sweetie once more
Oh, I know that you still want me too
underneath the calm exterior
the pain is showing through
once and done was never quite enough
the journey isn't over
so hang on love, the water's getting rough
We let them beat us
We let ourselves down
We laid ourselves down on the ground
With broken fists and bloodshot eyes
But our love is irrevocable
This fact you can't deny
So forget about the mistakes
we did the best we could
take hold of my hand love, and let's be what we should
let's break down these walls
and leave the pieces on the floor
take my hand love, and let me be your sweetie once more
We gave each other everything
but there's still room to grow
still love to show, still nights to hold
still places we should go
So forget about the mistakes
we did the best we could
take hold of my hand love, and let's be what we should
let's break down these walls
and leave the pieces on the floor
take my hand love and let me be your sweetie once more
Please my angel, let me be your sweetie once more
I haven't given up on you yet...
"I'm trying so hard
just to push you and the past aside
just like you pushed me away
with no real explaination why
my love, my soulmate, my one and only scar
oh God, let's face it..I'm not really trying all that hard
Oh, it's just not an option to let you go
the obstacles, the negativity, the lies that people told
they are no match for me, for the love that my heart holds
So forget about the mistakes
we did the best we could
take hold of my hand love, let's be what we should
let's break down these walls
and leave the pieces on the floor
take my hand love
and let me be your sweetie once more
Oh, I know that you still want me too
underneath the calm exterior
the pain is showing through
once and done was never quite enough
the journey isn't over
so hang on love, the water's getting rough
We let them beat us
We let ourselves down
We laid ourselves down on the ground
With broken fists and bloodshot eyes
But our love is irrevocable
This fact you can't deny
So forget about the mistakes
we did the best we could
take hold of my hand love, and let's be what we should
let's break down these walls
and leave the pieces on the floor
take my hand love, and let me be your sweetie once more
We gave each other everything
but there's still room to grow
still love to show, still nights to hold
still places we should go
So forget about the mistakes
we did the best we could
take hold of my hand love, and let's be what we should
let's break down these walls
and leave the pieces on the floor
take my hand love and let me be your sweetie once more
Please my angel, let me be your sweetie once more
I haven't given up on you yet...
The purpose of this blog
The purpose of this blog is to get my feelings out from the cage they stay locked in day in and day out. There's only one person in this world that I can truly talk to. That I can be myself around. And I lost him. I guess my hope is to somehow, someway connect with him through this blog. I know there's only a small chance that he will take the chance to read this, but it's something I have to do, even if it's just me reading it. It's gotta come out. Don't let anything in this blog worry you or frighten you. It's just me, and you know me. I often write songs and will be posting the lyrics on here, so if anyone does actually read this, please don't be too critical of me. It's just the thoughts floating in my weary head....
There is only one person in my life who will know of this blog and who will know how to find it and you know who you are, so feel free to comment or communicate with me through this. I can't force you to, but it would be nice to hear from you.
There is only one person in my life who will know of this blog and who will know how to find it and you know who you are, so feel free to comment or communicate with me through this. I can't force you to, but it would be nice to hear from you.
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